August 3
A year has gone by now.
A year of change. I'd like
say it is a year since I opened my eyes, but unfortunately it does not.
A year ago, a spark unleashed a blast that destroyed everything around me. A cataclysm as there ever were and my world collapsed on itself.
Never seen so much destruction, never has happened that I found myself on the ground so much.
My mistake, however, was to lay it all on a single pin. Error could not commit more.
I think back to what was only twelve months ago, the ideal world I had built and where I lived. I was calm, sure, but I did not know how things really were.
In hindsight I can say I glad I Carcano to find out what was underneath.
One year, then, is the past. A catastrophic year, characterized by profound changes. I am released, I tried to reach the bottom and we are successful. I stagnated on that fund for a long time, maybe too much, then I set out to climb.
This is a very difficult climb, and that does not mean that they bring me back where I was, it is said that leads me to be what it once was.
But I had to let go, and in doing so I made many mistakes, many people have paid for me.
Then one day I am involved in a long time. Often when 3-year point your eyes and your entire attention to one person you forget the rest and do not notice it. Then when this person there's your gaze wanders around a world that has now changed, and you are often changed with him.
And you find yourself in the mirror to look at a person who finds it hard to recognize. From there, spend some time re-learn who is this person, to understand who you are dealing with. A relearn yourself in practice.
The person I see now is a reservoir of hatred and resentment, and I do not know how to work around the problem. The total lack of trust in any person does not help to resolve the issue and then, what to do?
I still think sometimes I can not tell if I miss or not, almost can not remember how you made it. I deleted all traces of you, after a year there are more occurrences that I have not done it without you: the first birth, first day at the beach, the first Valentine's Day, the first San Lorenzo, and so on. Now everything has been overwritten, I do not have anything about you. I do not have your picture, I have several sites connected to you, the last time I cried was when I removed the latest photos from the last tag that we shared, then there are no more successful. Remember
still hurts and I think he will always, I have lived all as a traumatic experience and indeed it is, given the large number of consequences that has had and all he has left indelible marks. But unfortunately I still remember, even if rarely.
do not even know why I talk about it yet, it makes little sense, I neither believe that read these lines, it interests you that much about the thing, since you've started almost immediately, however, is not it? Oh well.
Now?
Well now everything is different, the world that was destroyed has been replaced. My life depends upon me is true, I do not care much of the world outside of me, it interested me. After all, why should I? Not that many people will be interested, and who did it eventually led to what happened exactly one year ago.
No, at least for now I prefer to worry about myself and nobody else. I have no one to do it for me and for once I do it myself, but others ricamberò the favor.
"You can not live alone ", true, but I do not mean exile. I'm just saying you might as well concetrarmi on myself and then eventually on the other, assign selfish for once (so much already, however, accuse me of egotism and selfishness, we might as well give reason) and think its good, not that of others. The lack of gratitude was expressed to me several times on several occasions, so I already know how to say "you reap what you sow" applies only in the negative sense
A year of change. I'd like
say it is a year since I opened my eyes, but unfortunately it does not.
A year ago, a spark unleashed a blast that destroyed everything around me. A cataclysm as there ever were and my world collapsed on itself.
Never seen so much destruction, never has happened that I found myself on the ground so much.
My mistake, however, was to lay it all on a single pin. Error could not commit more.
I think back to what was only twelve months ago, the ideal world I had built and where I lived. I was calm, sure, but I did not know how things really were.
In hindsight I can say I glad I Carcano to find out what was underneath.
One year, then, is the past. A catastrophic year, characterized by profound changes. I am released, I tried to reach the bottom and we are successful. I stagnated on that fund for a long time, maybe too much, then I set out to climb.
This is a very difficult climb, and that does not mean that they bring me back where I was, it is said that leads me to be what it once was.
But I had to let go, and in doing so I made many mistakes, many people have paid for me.
Then one day I am involved in a long time. Often when 3-year point your eyes and your entire attention to one person you forget the rest and do not notice it. Then when this person there's your gaze wanders around a world that has now changed, and you are often changed with him.
And you find yourself in the mirror to look at a person who finds it hard to recognize. From there, spend some time re-learn who is this person, to understand who you are dealing with. A relearn yourself in practice.
The person I see now is a reservoir of hatred and resentment, and I do not know how to work around the problem. The total lack of trust in any person does not help to resolve the issue and then, what to do?
I still think sometimes I can not tell if I miss or not, almost can not remember how you made it. I deleted all traces of you, after a year there are more occurrences that I have not done it without you: the first birth, first day at the beach, the first Valentine's Day, the first San Lorenzo, and so on. Now everything has been overwritten, I do not have anything about you. I do not have your picture, I have several sites connected to you, the last time I cried was when I removed the latest photos from the last tag that we shared, then there are no more successful. Remember
still hurts and I think he will always, I have lived all as a traumatic experience and indeed it is, given the large number of consequences that has had and all he has left indelible marks. But unfortunately I still remember, even if rarely.
do not even know why I talk about it yet, it makes little sense, I neither believe that read these lines, it interests you that much about the thing, since you've started almost immediately, however, is not it? Oh well.
Now?
Well now everything is different, the world that was destroyed has been replaced. My life depends upon me is true, I do not care much of the world outside of me, it interested me. After all, why should I? Not that many people will be interested, and who did it eventually led to what happened exactly one year ago.
No, at least for now I prefer to worry about myself and nobody else. I have no one to do it for me and for once I do it myself, but others ricamberò the favor.
"You can not live alone ", true, but I do not mean exile. I'm just saying you might as well concetrarmi on myself and then eventually on the other, assign selfish for once (so much already, however, accuse me of egotism and selfishness, we might as well give reason) and think its good, not that of others. The lack of gratitude was expressed to me several times on several occasions, so I already know how to say "you reap what you sow" applies only in the negative sense
